I can’t even deal with this anymore.
I don’t know what more you could want from me.
I always cry and tell you I want a break. but you know it too, I’ll never have the courage to do it. I love you too much. yet you always fail to recognize that maybe something is wrong- maybe you have to fucking see that I’m hurting on the inside, that nothing is going right which is what causes me to constantly come back to come back to this. Perhaps I just have too much faith in you, I had too much hope that you could be that person that I’ve always wanted. And that’s where you say my biggest flaw is, having the ability to, “fool people into believing they can have it all” when they actually can’t. It’s not a flaw though, if you can help others push through and realize their self worth. The only person I’m fooling is myself - for believing in you.
Everything always goes your way because you’re constantly blinded by your happiness
You think i want attention, but maybe I just need your love, I want you to care, I want your affection. Is that too much to ask for? I want so much more than you can offer me yet I constantly settle and fool myself into believing everything’s perfect. But is it? When will I get to spend the day just like how I want it to be? when will it not be about you?
You think that you’re the one who needs saving but really, you never think that maybe I need it more than you do.